Broken Thoughts… If Only…

Want to throw fuel into the flame
A broken down history of all the shit learned
Communication breakdown full of static
Laying in pieces scattered to the floor
So much easier to be thrown away
Starting over to protect
Beginning new layer by layer
The wall towers up higher and higher
Layer by layer the wall gets stronger
Bricks of emotions, feelings of disgusts
Won’t fade, can’t be pushed away
Locked inside here with me
My own depression
My own impression
Always meant to protected me from the fear
The wall is a weapon
I inflicted on myself

I can’t stand this American consumerism
But I don’t know anything different
Trapped in a wake of shit
Feel all the things I want strangling me
What I need surrounding the hole in my chest
Creeping in, digging deeper
We think we are so right with all our things

 

If Only I Thought In Words

Finding no more pleasure
Only pain
Every day is exactly the same
Doesn’t matter in the end
We all die
Pushing ahead against the stream
So sick of feeling starting to know why
Lost the ability to think
Lost my mind
No more room in there so to speak
The current is taking me
Only need a reason
Coming up blank
The thoughts haunt me even when I’m not awake
Drowning in the wake
Swallow my tongue, close my eyes, embrace the pain
Move on
Who doesn’t feel like this?
Shut your mouth and
Move on
Shut your eyes and
Keep going
So sick of faking this smile
So sick of knowing what it means
So tired of all of this
But most of all I’m so tired
Of me

 

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With scars so deep it’s amazing I can even sleep… 

The dark moments they pass
Behind closed doors
Behind closed eyes
Standing in plain sight
This too will pass

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