There’s No Way Of Knowing…

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chewingonglass

on

June 20, 2024

Slowly fading back in time
Lost to no avail
Wondering if this is now
Or five minutes ago
When I thought I couldn’t fail
The world is made out of spider webs
And chicken bones folded into a vail
Surely you know that this can’t be true
Even if we all know it could be
Sweat dripping off a brow next to the sea
Wish I was lying about how racism is like God
Can’t prove it is there but somehow we know it is
Digging holes deeper into the sand
Can’t seem to get these thoughts out of my head
Singing them over and over again
Striping bone from the flesh
Never could out run these reoccurring images
Moving ever closer towards death
I’d like to see change but I know enough
To know that none of this really can
Not with this much pain and agony
Sown into the fabric of history
With ghost moving around in the dark
Scary thoughts aren’t any worse than the truth
A starry sky that has nothing better to do
Except expand with no end in sight

Why does the feelings of motivation fade so quickly?…

Days spent doing nothing
A commitment to an idea
That’s meant more than I’ve said
My horns are starting to grow in
Ram like bones made of tooth and nails
Scratching up against the wall again
Flames all around burning windows
Six foot tall and growing taller
This empty room is becoming more like home

Took me long enough to learn nothing at all…

Something is stuck between the teeth
Broken glass or wasted dreams
No one cared to notice any of the things
Any of anything that meant something to me
Caught between something or stuck in between
Long nights listening to nothing I had to say
Words I’ve had to use to fill up the space
The void in my heart and the emptiness in my brain
At this point it all sounds the same to me
Like cracking glaciers or steel against concrete
I don’t know anymore it all sounds the same to me
Like something is stuck between my teeth
Shattered glass or contemplated dreams
No longer sure what it takes to be me