Chewing On Glass…

Tracking an intrepid goal through the woods
And out of the home that is my mind
I remember the memories but the thoughts I don’t know
What is there left to offer behind everything?
Companionship… Love… Devotion…
Hidden behind a chain linked fence
Hidden behind rusty barbed wire and old emotions
Why is this happening without a reason?
Sold you my soul for the low price of nothing
Small price to pay for something so insignificant
Still washed it away like shit on your shoe
Companionship… Love… Devotion…
Over rated emotions wasted on ungrateful people
I remember the feelings but the reasons I don’t know
What is there left to offer behind everything?
Reflecting upon the memories isn’t helping
And moving on doesn’t seem so relevant
To a situation that I can’t seem to recall
Still the feeling lingers that you meant so much more
Then I can remember you meaning to me

I could beat myself up… but I know it won’t help…

Overwhelmed by the things I believe define me
I want something different don’t even know where to begin
No longer want any part of anything I got
A million years digging into the thought
A million hours becoming something I’m not
I knew I had something to say
No longer sure I am the same person as before
Overwhelmed by all the things I think define me
Nothing is how I ever thought it would be
Slowly fading into a distant memory
No longer sure I want any part of anything I got
When it all feels so wrong to how I thought it was

Can’t seem to lose this pain stuck in my head…

The devil walks in place
Haunting me from a distance
Within arms reach
Hunting me through the dark
The devil lives in my shadow
Closer to the light they fall apart
Stuck in the dark
Haunting me from a distance
Waiting for myself to fail
This isn’t anything new
Waiting around waiting for you
This isn’t the first time
Won’t ever be the last
A sign of things to come
See through visions of the past
Hidden behind empty reflections
Can’t see you now but I know
You’re still there
Waiting for your turn

I have nothing nice to say… about myself… and I know enough to not say anything at all…