Chewing On Glass…

With this trail of tears
The path becomes unclear
Blurry eyed and missing
I thought I loved you
But I lied… to myself… to everyone
This trail of tears turns into a flood
Washing away this disguise
I can no longer hide behind these eyes
Broken hearts it turns out
Can’t heal properly over time
Who knew I’d felt better if I died?
Knew it then, but I still chose life
I guess the rest of you were right
With this endless trail coming from my eyes
There’s no turning back the night
I learned what it felt like to die
With this trail of tears
I’ve got to figure out what it means to live

I’m not for everybody… I’m barely for me…

Bending back time to manipulate the masses
It’s not like they’d ever notice
That I was never being me
It’s not like they’d ever notice
The change…
Sad… hurt… means the same thing…
Lame excuses to keep pushing forward
The past and the future… more of the same
If I wasn’t dying not sure I’d notice the difference
We’ve peaked at the point of today
Bending back time won’t change a thing
It’s not like they’d ever notice
Any way…
It’s not like they’d ever notice
Anything…
Locked so tightly in their heads
The truth becomes whatever they like
A bunch of lies to pass the time
Lame excuses to keep pushing forward
The past and the future… who gives a shit?
We’ve already destroyed enough for today
Bending back time isn’t going to make a difference
It’s not like they’d ever notice
What it is that they’ve done
It’s not like they’d ever notice
That this imaginary they is really us

Absent-mindedly I have forgotten what it was that I was going to say… Something to do with the general state of my own well being… more maybe it had something more to do with current affairs… Either way I’m sure it was only more heavy handed bull shit about things that didn’t really matter… My bread and butter… Basic things to keep the hands of time moving…

Recently I got in a new shipment of Gundams… Twelve more to be exact… also I am into Gundam… Not really the shows or the universes… Just the models themselves… To be clear about the whole thing I only like putting them together… I have no talent for the rest of the process… It doesn’t weight heavy on my mind or anything… Enough about me though…

Hope all is well…