Chewing On Glass…

Dancing in the shadows of the light
The future comes to me in a vision
There is no fire, no brimstone to hold
Violence built in our heads unknown
A peace washes over what’s left of the bones
Flowers growing where your heart once rested
Without any of us maybe this could be home
Something better than the pain we know
Wasted life rushing to a unknown conclusion
Now that you know… Is it any better
Than you thought it might be?
Looking for answers already resting in your bones
Looking for something we lost like a remote
There isn’t more around the corner… over the horizon
Only more of what you already know
The end doesn’t have to be the beginning to something else
The beginning isn’t the natural end to something either

Humanity only struggles under the stress of change…

Stacking up words for later
Things to mean something
When I need them the most
Ideas that only mean something to me
Wasting my time believing in bigger things
When this is all it was ever going to be…

If God isn’t good and evil… Where does that leave us?…

I hear your lips moving along to the beat
Your words through aren’t making a sound
The stench of your breath isn’t matching your tone
You can try repeating all the bible verses you know
But it isn’t going to save your soul this time
So take another drink and get on your way
My minds not so clear these days… by that I mean
It is clearer than it’s been in centuries
Too much thinking and not enough execution
Because no one asked so I thought what the hell
Give it a shot and fail one more time
Not enough substance to mean well
The thoughts are growing darker in here
The ideas aren’t growing any brighter either
Not when you bring me the overwhelming evidence
That none of this should exist in the first place
You keep praying for me too change
While kneeling in place and typing away
It can’t feel all that great
Telling everyone else that they suck
“Oh, but it does.”
It can’t feel all that great
Telling people to go kill themselves
“Oh, you have no idea.”
There’s no way we were put here
To tear everything down to the foundation
“There’s no better feeling then knowing
you are the most right about everything.”

Internet culture has gotten out of hand… I mean it happened probably a decade ago… but I wasn’t really around then to bitch and moan… So here we go… This just is the way we might be… and any evidence to the contrary is nothing more than smoke pouring out of our asses…

Call me jaded… but as a person who has been bullied most of their life… I can’t really see a difference between “internet culture” and the real world… This just in… people are assholes… giant gaping spewing assholes… but sometimes there is a good person from time to time… very rare like a nice clean shit on an American diet… It isn’t impossible but it is still a surprise to celebrate every time…

Never quite sure why any of this is surprising to anyone… people being assholes… not the shitting part… I mean look at what we eat… Then again I don’t get how happy people are always happy and not thinking about killing themselves at least twice a day… Hell… if I don’t think about it at least once a day… I start to think maybe I picked something up while out shopping… There’s no way I’m not dying if I’m not thinking about it…

Killing myself… not the shopping part… Though some days I can’t tell the difference… I get that things have to be expensive to keep me compliant and let me know that I will never get ahead… but do I really have to wait over twenty minutes to figure that out?… Cut me some slack… This noose doesn’t have to be that tight around my neck… This might be getting a little dark for a few of you…

But why must you take all my money and waste all my time… pick one and let it be enough… What the fuck was I talking about… Internet culture and the lack of it… supposedly… Is it really all that different here… than walking around out there?… Illusion… “a thing that is or is likely to be wrongly perceived or interpreted by the senses.”

Sometimes the definition says it all… direct and to the point… Harsher realities have been perceived by man… Not sure what that means… but it sounds like it means something to someone… And that has to be the point of something… when you don’t have a better answer to a question that just doesn’t make sense… Why is internet culture so mean?… Because there is no one there to punch them in the face…

Violence… “behavior involving physical force intended to hurt, damage, or kill someone or something”… is wrong in every sense of the word… And honestly not the answer 99.9% of the time… but it is hard to argue it doesn’t have its place in our perceived reality… or at least the fear of it…

Well now we are just a snake eating ourselves… and I’ve only come off as an asshole… I was trying really hard to go at least a day… This shit is more complicated than the average American diet… and just as disgusting splashing against the bowl…

Hope all is well…

Still got a couple of copies left… Doesn’t make great toilet paper… but in an emergency… it is still better than bark… Something to think about…