Chewing On Glass…

Fighting destiny, pushing against my skin and bones
Not sure who I’m meant to be, but not wanting it
Hurts just as much as no knowing
The sea was angry again today my friend
Took more souls than it needed but who knows
It’s not like life has a quota for these things
We don’t know… doors meant to be left closed
If understanding god meant something
I’m sure we’d have to be the first to know
Words resting in the back of my throat
Stories meant to be left untold
Circumstances we weren’t meant to hold
Tell the crying baby you don’t know
Where the sun and the moon go
When they are through with their day
Explain how it is its just the way it is
Make up enough lies then they’ll understand
Not sure who I’m meant to be, but
Not wanting it hurts just as much
As not knowing what I was going
To say… about my destiny…

If you could put it back where you found it… that’d be great…

Locked in a moment
That is slowly slipping away
Wasted too much time today
On things that won’t change
Humans I have found
Were only born this way
To feed off emotions
Expressions on our faces
Shit we say doesn’t matter
Not fucking fooling me
Locked in a discussion
That no one is listening to
Wasted too much time already
Debating things that don’t change
Humans I have found
Were only born this way
To accept punishment
For what it isn’t
Shit we say doesn’t matter
Not fucking fooling me
Into believing things will change

If this was all meaning less… why do I bother?…

There’s an empty feeling turning into a fever
Wasn’t sure that it made any sense
Turns out it doesn’t matter
Words wasted on deaf ears
Only equals wasted years
Worrying about what you might think
Turns out it never mattered
Not to the lonely audience in my head at least
There’s an empty feeling growing inside of me
That has become my only true friend
Wasn’t sure they understood me either
Turns out their opinion was only my own
Words wasted on trying not to be lonely
Only equals wasted tears
Worrying about what you might say
Turns out if no one knows it doesn’t matter

Without a care in the world… I send out another barrage of broken thoughts into the universe… Unneeded… unnecessary… but here we are none the less… Hope all is well…