Chewing On Glass…

I have to say I feel better about whatever this is
It all pretty much looks the same from down here
Even more so at a predetermined speed
Can’t be any more different from so high above
Little ants moving around doing their thing
Pretending like they know anything about any of this
Building up their little nests twig by twig
I’d like to say this worked out just as planned
But that’s the nature of not knowing what it is
Have to take all the good even with the bad
Sure I brought in disease but also brought you life
Death and the embarrassment of shitting your pants
It isn’t a joke if you are the one that pushed so hard
I have to say I feel better now not knowing
About whatever this was supposed to be about

The end is the beginning if you don’t know where it began…

It’s not like we have anything left to lose
Thinking about something differently than it is
Backs pressed against an invisible wall
I guess it is time we found out what it means to be
Hanging by the necks of our own thoughts
Still we get so worried though
About things we cannot control
God’s going to reset it all soon
We may still be looking for proof
But we are certain in our bones
That it has to be there somewhere
Flipping through page after page
Our sweaty hands making the words bleed
We get all our answers from the dead and gone
Our bloody hands staining what’s left of the pages
There has to be something here about
Setting our house on fire and the difference
Between restricted and unrestricted loans
Words about the forgiveness of past mistakes
God foresaw everything except for how
To develop a tax free money system that doesn’t fail
God saw it all and how it all would pan out
But forgot to mention the definition of a man or a woman
I guess there wasn’t enough time even when it’s endless
Circumvented all the important parts about existence
So we’d have something we could hold in our hands
Pretty well designed if not well executed in hind sight
Can’t say they didn’t at least try… missing chapters of our lives
To explain something about nothing without lies
God did the best they could with what little they knew
Wasn’t real bright leaving the rest up for us to decide
Could have really used something more than this
Old English rough toilet paper about how hard it is to live

Is this the real life?… Or is this just a fantasy… Who knows anymore?… I wish I did… Wish I knew anything… or cared enough to know anything… So much easier to pretend that I’m not even here… Here as in this planet… this state… this city… this time and place…

Easier to dig a hole then do what is right… Some people lately are really taking that to heart… It is Wednesday after all… I believe… Probably shouldn’t complain too much… No idea what could come about by Thursday… See it really is that easy to just forget…

Not sure that cleared anything up… Not sure what there was to clear up in the first place… Too many problems to clear up with such simple words… Maybe that is the problem to begin with… Maybe that has always been the problem… Maybe there isn’t even a problem at all… We just have nothing better to do…

Easier to create problems then try to fix anything… Some people lately are really taking that to heart… It is today after all… I believe… Probably shouldn’t point anything out… No idea what could come about by tomorrow… See it really is that easy to just pretend…

Not sure that cleared anything up… Not sure what there was to clear up in the first place… Seems we are in some kind of circle… a type of cycle that requires no end… or a place to begin… Seems to me that it is two different issues fight each other… for no explanation as to why… Seems a whole lot like something called life…

Doesn’t make it wrong… Doesn’t make it right… We all have choices… We all have reasons… Doesn’t make every one of them wrong… Doesn’t make every one of them right… We all have choices… We all have reasons… Something to think about… Something to remember… Seems some people lately aren’t bothering to take that to heart…

Hope all is well…