Chewing On Glass…

Letting go isn’t as easy as it seems
Hanging onto the words of the past
Knew not everything I said could last
Never pledge anything to my skin
An ever-dying allegiance to nothing
Things I thought mattered enough to say
If it wasn’t enough the first time
Does it really matter a second time
Guess that’s why I’m here…
What I’ve done with so little effort

I should quit… but what would I do with the time?…

Letting go isn’t as easy as it seems
Hanging onto the words of the past
When she was barely here to begin with
A lost stranger to an idea that I wouldn’t be here
Life and death through a rebirth of something new
Probably should have meant something to me
But my cold heart still can’t figure out how
Building blocks of here and now
Past generations slowly dying off
The impact of their issues we’re only figuring out
Letting go isn’t as easy as it seems
When we’re so haunted by the ways of the past
Hanging on for no reason at all…

Life’s a beach and then you have to wake up to the real nightmare… of figuring out that you have no idea why… Why is something so simple… so much harder than it has to be?… Why?… Why not?… What does it matter?… It doesn’t… So… you are saying… Yeah…

I need to find a topic to talk about that isn’t playing like a broken record inside my head… Maybe I’ll just start retelling you the books that I am reading… Save you the time of having to read them on your own… Seems a bit unfair to rob you of the experience though…

Hopefully a little vacation will do me some good… because I’m burning up from all the little flames… Inch by inch… thought after thought… leaving behind so little less than ash…