Chewing On Glass…

Working on the death of a fundamental thought
Doing the math there is very little reason to go on
Not that I haven’t told myself to at least try
The effort wasted on too many broken thoughts
Digging through the literature I just don’t know
Not that the chaos wasn’t fun for a while
The effects haven’t been adding up to what I’d call a life
Working on the death of a foundational thought
Words said that aren’t really coming together
Your sleight of hand didn’t take away from this feeling
But your disrespect really sped up the thought
I had thought for too long I was human too
Turns out I’ve always been nothing more than
A figurative of lack of imagination…
Could you imagine how that feels?
I honestly don’t think you could

It is a fact that we don’t have all of them on hand for a reason…

I need to thank you for releasing the beast
From its cage… If you weren’t such a cunt
Where would I be right now?
Probably too stuck in my head
Thinking about what I could of said
Your lack of caring has inspired me to say
I hope you die in a fiery crash
That your brain slowly rots from inside
I hope it is so slow, your death that is
That every ounce of pain coming your way
Hurts ten times more than it should
The thought keeps my heart burning
Thank you so much for showing me what you
Are worth to a monster like me…

Been a while since I have been this angry… In fact, it has been seven months… And was I ever pissed… Clearly… Even rereading and rewriting it for today’s post… What happened still makes me pretty pissed… but it is always best to forgive and forget…

By forget… I mean pretend like that one person never existed… doesn’t exist… will never exist again to me… Easier said than done… When you have to see them every day… But it is very possible… because no one is a bigger cunt than me… If you push me hard enough… I can be a real asshole… Leave you on the side of the road in the middle of nowhere kind of person… and feel nothing…

I’m sure we all can… If you try hard enough… The point isn’t to be mean… or cruel… the point is that some people just aren’t worth your time… I could waste your time and my time… calling this person out… explaining everything in detail… but the truth is… why?… They were never worth it… Will never be worth it… and I wish them not the best… not the worst… I wish them absolutely nothing…

A life full of nothing… no pleasure… no pain… no anything at all… and what could be worse than that?… A lonely existence where no one or nothing gives a damn about you?… Words said… reality settling in… I’ve already wasted too much time on this person… Got what I needed and ready to move on… Hope all is well… except for them…