Chewing On Glass…

Thought once maybe there was more
Over the hill of through the woods
A fork in the road, but we already know
Long hair and hippies… lost philosophies
Longer robes and endless lies to be told
Going down isn’t the same as going up
Unless you’re certain of the direction you must go
Didn’t think it through either, but had to keep moving
If that isn’t the meaning of life I’m not sure you’re alive
I’m certain I lost some of you there
Lost myself as well and now I’m obsessed
Not with the thoughts or what I have said
More to do with what I’ve done to get here
Complicated is the best excuse I’ve made up
Simplicity then is the reason I can’t see what I have
Thought once maybe there was more to all of this
Over the hills and through the woods
A fork in the road, but we already understood
Fairytales are little more than lost philosophies
About nothing at all…

If anyone was paying attention… There’d be a whole lot less than there is…

Everyone was right and I’m so wrong
This feeling isn’t going away like I thought
Switch flipped in me in the middle of the night
Been struggling to see any light in this
Tired of the words that keep coming up
One long night like the rest of them
Isn’t bringing me the relief I’ve been begging for
Everyone was right and I’m so wrong
I’m too weak inside to try and fight
These feelings being pushed down on me
I’ve been the problem and not the situation
Victim blaming solves everything… didn’t you know?

The invisible scars growing with every breath…

Doing something is so much harder
Than doing nothing at all but
Doing nothing is too addicting to
Not just let it happen
Endless thoughts laying around this DMZ
Wouldn’t be such a lonely place to be
If only there was something to see
All these invisible eyes staring back at me
What will I do… What can I say…
Watch and understand the meaning of regret
A lifetime spent proving a point
Endless thoughts laying around on the concrete
Wouldn’t be so bad of a place to be
If only the performance wasn’t enough to kill me
All these invisible peers staring back at me
What isn’t he going to do… What can’t he really say…
Mute the words and condemn the actions but
The mind says everything anyway
Better them than us… I don’t think so and neither should you…
I don’t think any of us are worth as much as we thought we were
Do something or do nothing the outcome is only a matter of time
But when the time comes you only need to understand this…
The made-up lines we hold so dear were only drawn in the sand
And the oceans won’t stop until it swallows up all the land

Funny thing about humans… people… animals… whatever we are today… wait long enough… twenty minutes should be plenty… and everything swings back around… wrote most of this last year… and yet it feels like I am talking about anything that might be going on at the moment… I’m not… I could if I want… But I don’t have to…

Who has the time to be in the present when there is still so much left to say about days gone by?…

Hope all is well… if not we can always discuss it later… Thoughts and Prayers…