Chewing On Glass…

Chained to the memories
A sinking feeling taking me
Was it you or was it something else
Constant state of denial
About anything going on around me
False memories of an ideal truth
Sinking with the ship
A choking feeling taking over
Fighting for discomfort was never me
Was it you or was it something else
Continued state of deception
About anything that doesn’t deal with me
Fake memories of an idea called truth
Choking while starving for attention
A seething feeling taking me
Was it you or was it something else
Current state of disruption
About anything that happens to me
Faint memories of an ideal truth
Maybe what was said was not ok
Regrets regarding the way I treated you
Was it really me though or something else

It’ll burn your skin… if you keep rubbing the tears…

Looking past a useless existence
Born into this like a plague
Discovered in the seas of Japan
Left behind for someone else to find
Destroying everything in my wake
Riding in on a tidal wave of pain
There was a time for prayer
That time has come and gone
As the times only get worse
The thoughts start to build up
A pressure no one can escape
Waiting to be discharged and forgotten
My anger is such a useless emotion
Doesn’t fit me anymore like it use to
What exactly is it we doing here
With any of these passionate concerns
Said you cared… calling your bluff because I
Know with an authority no one really does

Most of us are digging a hole for a grave we didn’t know was there…

Giving into reason
Giving up on explanations
How I feel is never the same
Breaking down all over again
Take what you want
Where I’m going… I won’t need anything
Slipping further into this depression
Digging deeper into this feeling
As it tightens its grip on everything
A shadow I can’t escape
Chasing ghosts into the night
Silently suffering to the noises in my head

Never too sure about the order of these thoughts… then I remember that they are broken after all… I’ve been trying to work on short stories… mostly ideas at this point… I need to find the time to put all the ideas together… There might be too many floating around in here though for anything to happen…

My efforts… what little I have… would probably be better suited focusing on one singular goal… so in theory not being me… feel like I have heard that somewhere else before… maybe in a dream… maybe looking in the mirror… not sure… the thoughts blend together at a certain point…

Any way… I’ve already moved on… I’ve got books available over at Amazon… Merch in the shop… Thank you to those that have recently bought some stuff… I hope you enjoy… Please leave a review if you can… every little thing really does help… Including reading my random rants online… so thank you to you as well… Hope all is well…