Chewing On Glass…

Going for a ride to the other side of the conversation
Not sure where this will lead me to no end
Mostly the point, but that’s not the way things should be
How I do things these days or any day for that matter
Running away from these guilty feelings
More me than I’d be happy to admit
Embracing the sadness and waiting for it to go away
More me than I’d be entitled to admit
Pressured myself to feel like this
Forced myself to take a chance on something different
And it failed… Hard to admit that not everything
In my life could go so well as this

Revelations I couldn’t comprehend…

What am I doing here?
What am I trying to prove?
To myself, to everyone else
No one’s listening, no one cares
Suffering for something I can’t control
Feeling sorry for someone I don’t know
My empathy will drag me to my grave
Wasn’t born selfish enough
What am I fighting for?
What am I trying to get?
From myself, from everyone else
No one’s listening, no one cares
Striving for something I can’t control
Feeling sorry for myself
My selfishness will dig my grave
Wasn’t born empathetic enough
To exist for your amusement
Excepting failure is all I have left
And I just have to be fine with that

Wondering how much of this we were meant to take…

Without your love I thought
I’d never make it through
Lies I told myself to get through it all
Never needed your love as much as I thought
A dead weight resting in my chest
The time has come as it does for all things
For me to just let go and move on
Can’t live like this with your weight strapped to me
Dead feelings and dying memories
Sadder feelings and fading memories
Without your love… without you…
There was always a light upon the horizon
Can see it now even through the darkness
Fighting these haunting feelings blocking my way
The history I believed I could never over come
Spent enough time dying to know I can turn the page
Fading volumes of what we were and what we’ve become
Without your love I thought
I’d never make it through
Lies I’ve written to make it through it all
Never needed your love as much as I thought
Only needed the excuse to keep on going
Dead feelings and dying memories
Sadder feelings and fading memories
Of a decaying history titled you and me

That last one hit pretty hard… really nothing to add to that… relationships can be difficult… all relationships are built on trust… Once it is gone… it is gone… but who wants to dwell on that shit?…

We are still here… Maybe not forever… but definitely for now… and that is something special… something to be celebrated… Life is a gift… live it doing what you love when you can…

If you didn’t know… or maybe I didn’t say… Modest Mouse is my favorite band… and these are my top three favorite songs by them… Their best album to me is The Moon & Antarctica… and worth checking out…

Any way here are my three favorite tracks in order…

Okay one more… this is my daughter’s favorite as well…