Chewing On Glass…

We aren’t given too many chances at this
One and we’re done… I guess… what I’m told
Pay for the larger package and receive a discount
Loyalty programs always pay out triple fold
Save so much more on your next purchase
Another chance… that isn’t there… from what I’m told
We aren’t given too many chances at this
Collect as many points as you can before there gone
Double up on interest and hope for the best… I guess
What I’m told it takes to make it in this world
Who to believe… I don’t know… when I’m so broke

It doesn’t have to make sense because that’s the way it is…

The words don’t feel the same
From my head to the page
Something gets lost in what I’m trying to say
Teeth grinding and maybe they’ll break this time
Free up sometime for later… my priorities aren’t clear
Not having enough time to play hide and seek
The rules don’t make any sense to the rest of us
I thought the point was for you to never talk to me
Must have gotten lost in some sort of translation
No explanation necessary was the way I was raised
Asking too many questions is the wrong way to play
Wrote something better but the words
Don’t feel the same from my head to the page

Because that part of me couldn’t die…

Resting upon the cross what was it
That we thought was going to happen
The more nails driven in the tighter the fit
Too many thoughts on things that don’t matter
Hasn’t left me feeling any kind of guilt
Miss drinking but not as much as I thought I should
It never gave me the satisfaction I thought it had
A good start, but an emptiness all the same
These nails are digging in deeper
Skin pressing against the wood
I knew form the start I never could
Be any closer than when this began
No closer to being anything I thought mattered
This lack of sleep isn’t bring me any closer either
To a conclusion that I know isn’t there
Miss you more in my head than when we are apart
No longer mean what you did before
The words they no longer hurt anymore
I guess that’s what you mean to me now
A leftover remnant of a bloody cross I once bared

I’m thinking of adding paid content… I’m thinking the cost is everything you own… Is that fair?… Probably easier to start a cult… Is that something that interests you more?… We wouldn’t probably do much of anything… sit in a silent circle and write stuff down… Is it cool we do it remotely?… I prefer to write alone… and we’d save a lot of money on rent… They are charging way too much out here for studio apartments out here… imagine how much a whole house would cost to rent… a literal nightmare…

I guess for now we are just going to have to keep things the way they are… I know… I’m just as disappointed as you are… Economically starting a cult just isn’t financially viable at the moment… Maybe this time next year if we can save enough money?… Did I mention we’d get to wear masks?… Alright… just something to think about… Hope all is well…