Chewing On Glass…

No longer happy
With the lies living in me
No longer satisfied
Knowing I’m not going to win
The floor sinks further
And the bar just keeps rising
No longer happy
With these lies in me
No longer satisfied
Knowing we are only living to die
Taking apart the machine
Wasn’t a healthy experience for me
Replacing the broken parts
Hurt more than I thought it would
Wasn’t the right way to go about this
The floor sinks further
And the deeper I go
Nowhere seems to be a place
Not unlike a grave
There wasn’t ever a chance
Any of this was meant to change
No longer happy
With these lies living in me
No longer satisfied
Knowing none of this meant anything

If only I could see the world from behind a glass cage…

There’s a darkness hidden in me
Try to give it light to feed
But it only ever runs away
Only want to embrace it in my arms
To feel its shape against my finger tips
All my effort feels useless this time
Something about this darkness
Doesn’t feel the same as before
Slowly consuming from the shadows
It doesn’t want to play
Only wants to take in more
There’s a darkness growing in me
Tried to give it light to go away
But it only grows stronger

Maybe then I could appreciate what it is that I gave away…

Shut out and driven under
The words don’t mean the same
As they did before
Invisible walls and shiny monsters
Haunting me from all sides
It isn’t one singular thing
But it’s all my fault
I bring on my own pain
Taking away what isn’t mine
I’ve been left with only my mind
Dripping and soaking in deceit
I bring on my own pain
Self-destruction wasn’t supposed to be
The way… know no other way
Self-destruction wasn’t supposed to be
The way… Know no other way
As the walls close in
Something that feels all to real…

The hunt for something more continues… Not much else to say about something that has no end… I could force something out… But what’s the point?… Instead I leave you with this song as a parting gift… to haunt your thoughts… something to wander about…

Hope all is well…