Happy Halloween…

What… No horror story?… honestly couldn’t come up with anything more terrifying than the idea that I won’t be back until January…

That’s right… it is that time again… really hope that you have enjoyed these last few months… the stories… the Broken Thoughts… and the rambling… enough about looking back… it is time to go out and get some candy… never too old for free shit…

Pro tip… Take a kid… people ask way fewer questions… Outside of who’s kid is this and what not… unless you already have your own… then you are playing the game on God Mode…

In the mean time enjoy this video… while I figure out what to do with it…

More to come… hopefully… not sure I needed to add more shit to my plate… but fuck it… crazy train is rolling out of the station… good night… and good luck… Hope all is well… I’m out to fucking lunch… see you all in January…

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Out To Lunch…

Thanks for stopping by… out on vacation for a few weeks or months… check below for actual posts… first time visiting the website?… there are tabs for older stuff… poems… stories… previews for the books available… not sure if it is enough material to subside you until I return… but something is always better than nothing…

Hope all is well… Layne Ambrose…

When I get that bag down… is when I can write again…

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Broken Thoughts… Pretty Good Idea…

This is the end of everything
My ever need
Bury me
A grave with nothing to say
Say my name
Devil inside me
Destruction at every turn
Living in a world that couldn’t sit still
I’ll bring you everything you need
Screaming in place

Can’t see the words through the blur

Hangman’s noose
Judge, jury
Hate myself more
Than anyone ever could
Punishment for sins unknown
Woke up into a world of shit
Born into this skin
Wish I could escape somehow
Every attempt leaves me feeling
Wishing I was dead
Screaming in my skull
Dragging this body around

Spilling shit all over myself

In the shadows becoming something else
The trick isn’t as exciting when
You know the process
Down right depressing
If you only knew
You’d ask me to stop, give up
Save yourself you’d say
Who would I be anyway
Giving away everything
Save you for myself

I need to stop listening to sad songs…. bringing out the best in me?… unlikely…

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This Week Was A Wash…

Yeah I had plans this week… well I did them… but not a damn thing for the website… next week for sure… in the mean time here are some songs that I am listening to… a half ass attempt to make it up to you… as soon as I pull my head out of my ass… I promise I have big ideas… problem is though… it is really wedged up there… bare with me…

This video is so creepy… but I love it…

Amazing song…
Can’t all be weird… love the bass line…

Right in the Soul… (Music Post)

If they don’t touch you that’s okay… these are just two songs that touch my soul… I recommend finding your own… because music is life… and we all have a beat that keeps us going in this world… find yours… dance… scream… do what you need… : )

Take care and have a great day…

Running In The Dark

I’m doing all of this from my phone… So yeah things might get messed up…

Digging myself out of a six foot ditch
Self imposed, Always willing to inflicted
Dragging my toe across the line
Each thought a suicide letter in my mind
Embracing the darkness I’ve tried to forget
Burning down the alter you’ve strapped me to
Fighting to remember every fucking word
You’re testing all that I have left mother fucker
Drowning you in a lake of your own shit
Wouldn’t even scratch the surface of how
You make me feel
Left alone, left for dead, all I’ve ever had is this loneliness
There is a good chance that I kill everyone standing in my way
How’s that for fucking progress?
Spitting in the face of everything you’ve ever said

And it was in that moment that I no longer feared God because I was already in hell

The drinking helped for awhile
But now I’m just a drunk
With one wish
Promise me you will do it
Make it happen
Drive the last nail where it deserves to be
If you won’t do it for you
Could you at least do it for me

The insanity helped for awhile
But now I’m just fucking crazy
With one promise
Promise me you’ll finally do it
Drive the stake right through my heart
If you won’t do it for yourself
At least do it for humanity

Promise me you’ll do these two things
Promise me like you said you once loved me
Promises is all that I got to keep up hope
Probably should have just given up
But no one will ever know

It’s hard to talk to you with so much hurt in the way.

The darkness coming back again
A commitment I’m not willing to commit to
The doubting has me thinking
Maybe this life was never worth living
Sadness only a thought or so I thought
Sweeping me out to sea once again
A darkness I’m no longer fearing to be
Knocking on death’s door becoming more faint
A tapping I can get behind
No longer a noise but a pretty rhythm of thought
Miss the days gone by, the days I believed
Everything was alright
Sinking into a set of freshly made skin
The doubting is all I seem to have now
A sickness taking over, never felt to whole
A Satan’s prayer, battle between heaven and hell

As usual I’m doing a lot better now… Then when I wrote these originally… I’m sure you may have noticed I haven’t posted in a while… Haven’t really been feeling like myself lately… Well for awhile… Trying to get back into everything… Trying to pull myself out of this hole… Some I dug myself and some of it I didn’t… But in the end a hole is a hole… No matter how deep it goes… I just need to pull myself out of it… Before I end up living in it…

Like I said I’m doing better… Could be better… But I’m doing the best I have been for the last few weeks… Not sure if this post will lead into more… Hopefully… But this whole working from my phone thing… Is a little hard to get used too… Haha… So we shall see…

In the meantime take care… I’ll be around… And I will be back…

Broken Thoughts… More Than I Need…

Constant like a fucking child
Driven under
Driven to live
A mindless existence
Shut the fuck up
Then maybe, you’d be right
Tape my mouth shut
Torture me, make me feel something
Nothing different then the way
It is supposed to be
Cut my limbs, nail them to a tree
Same as it is supposed to be
I wish you’d do onto me
As I wished for you


Looking to destroy more than myself
Line up, take you out one by one
I know it is what you always wanted
I know you have always wanted to win
Judge ourselves not by what we’ve done
But what we wish to have been


Kill myself slowly
Life or what I’ve been told
I hold each word against me
A lie I’ve been told
Loved you more than I’ve loved myself
Locked in a world, that I can not win
I’d fuck you sooner than you can fuck me
A worthless fuck I see myself in
The reflection that I see
Desiring action, desire to see myself
Always been the asshole
A sin I hide myself in
Taking what I want
Believing what I want to believe
A whore I see myself in
Cult of personality, I could never win
Unless you let me
Being drunk is a sin
An escape I find myself in
Fuck you, if you ever thought you could win
A running thought inside my head
My thoughts run off
Digging a ditch I call my grave
A home I hold within
I’m so done, a struggle within,  you win


Remorse is for the dead… all that needs to be said… still alive?… then you already know what needs to be done.. what there is left to say… keep going on with me… we will figure all of this out at a later time… 

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