Tag: depression
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Important To Make More Dirt…
Told myself I could butI couldn’tMy ego isn’t that of oneWho can weather the stormConstantly building in my headI wanted more and nowI don’tMy self-esteem is that of someoneWho could disappear like a ghostConstantly dying in my headI had more to say and knowI wouldn’tNever designed to go any furtherThan…
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Room 237… Isn’t For Everybody…
With a head so cloudyCan’t see the sun for what it isEven stillThese feelings don’t want to die in meExposed and lying openI don’t think either one of thoseMeans what I think it doesWith a head so heavyFeel like a zombieWandering through this slowlyThese feelings don’t seemTo want to let…
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Dripping Sweat… Candle Wax Of The Dead…
I hope it burnsUntil the skin is goneI hope it all goes awayUntil there’s nothing leftI hope it all fades awayUntil the dusts all goneI hope it hurtsUntil the point you can’t hang onI hope it all goes awayUntil there’s nothing leftRealizing nowThat I was born to feel this wayUnder…
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Chewing On the Fat…
Burning through life like a junkieWith nothing to lose…Living wasn’t worth what they told me it wasThis isn’t a fucking raceIt’s a marathon that doesn’t endThink I’m going to be sickThe needles in my back… filled with liesRunning low on my own supplyLiving wasn’t what they said it would beThis…
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We Grow So Painful…
Everything is going to be fineWorst case you’ll just dieAnd then who’s going to careWhat we leave behindDoesn’t define who we wereBarely proves we were even hereBodies pilling up and we stillDon’t know what to do with themMartyrs for a cause without definitionI’d like to believe it was for somethingBut…
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Bloody… Bloody… Fingernails…
It only ends the way that I thought it wouldGave it another shot and it wasn’t enoughSo do I give up again or keep going onSailing in the dark… the long nightsOnly feel longer the longer I go onIt will all be over before I know itBut I know it…
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That Just Isn’t My Thing…
Avoiding what needs to be doneFor fear of failure… success… changeLies I tell myself to stay the sameBurdens I carry with me to never beMore than my dreams could allowBurying myself further under broken thoughtsAn invisible mountain I’m too scared to climbSome of us really were only born to failI’ve…
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She Said I Throw Myself Away…
Letting go isn’t as easy as it seemsHanging onto the words of the pastKnew not everything I said could lastNever pledge anything to my skinAn ever-dying allegiance to nothingThings I thought mattered enough to sayIf it wasn’t enough the first timeDoes it really matter a second timeGuess that’s why I’m…
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Everything Is Meant To Fall Right Into Place…
Watson Lane West… Old Balstrop Road…Sign mocking me… reminds me where I’m headingPlenty of places I’ve never been beforeFloating down this creek for a relaxing get awayWhat’s left of a dried out river bedThat was once a gateway to a better placeMade of smooth stones and broken glassNot getting real…
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None Of This Is Happening…
Been a while since I’ve thoughtOf anything to say about nothingA lost diary of contradictionsNever really was sure what to do with my timeExcept to waste it on waste full thingsLost in a haze of my own makingThere’s no secret to my own successful failuresBeen a long while since I’ve…
Chewing On Glass... 