Tag: loathing
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Maybe Something Will Come To Me…
Doesn’t really matter does itHow I felt and what I sawMemories lost in a vacuumDrifting into a space that doesn’t existPast the outer edges of existenceSomewhere out there the wholeSolar system is floating on byLife comes and it goes without a concernAlongside thoughts of suicide and depressionThings that really hurt……
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Soon There Won’t Be Anything…
The words playout in my headA tiny play about nothingYour life time spent not existingWhile I lock myself awayIn my own tiny cageI knew then I’d never haveAnything more to sayNo way of getting you toChange your ways…Shouldn’t have triedBut I did anyway… Chipping away at what is left that…
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Shock Me Awake… Tear Us Apart…
Want to dig a hole in the back yardA little place to feelTo get a feel for how it’s going to feelAlmost there and I’d like to thinkA Lazarus pit that doesn’t existI don’t feel it, but I doDeath gripping my soul… Dragging me closer to home…Trapped here with you…
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Blind To The Reasons…
Working on the death of a fundamental thoughtDoing the math there is very little reason to go onNot that I haven’t told myself to at least tryThe effort wasted on too many broken thoughtsDigging through the literature I just don’t knowNot that the chaos wasn’t fun for a whileThe effects…
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You Must Be Pleased…
Knew not what I knewWhat I had was it worthThe cost or the hurt it bringsTell me lord am I pushing throughProbably just giving into what you giveThe cost and the hurt it takesKnowing it all has to go awayIf wishing I was deadWas the plan then I’m doneDragging my…
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Clean The Wounds One More Time…
My heart is out of tune from who I’ve becomeAnother cigarette and I’ll understand the soundBuilding in my head like a funeral processionIf being dead was the answer I’ve known for a whileWhat it was that I wanted to do with this lifeDifferent words have different meaningsSaid out loud or…
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Tonight Of All Nights…
The heart wants what the heart wantsAnd your heart has never wanted meDestined to be… disconnectedFated to be… how it was meant to beIt wasn’t as though I didn’t noticeTried to prove I was worth more thanYou thought of me… faithful to the endWas it worth it… destined to beDisconnected……
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Bloody… Bloody… Fingernails…
It only ends the way that I thought it wouldGave it another shot and it wasn’t enoughSo do I give up again or keep going onSailing in the dark… the long nightsOnly feel longer the longer I go onIt will all be over before I know itBut I know it…
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The Deeper This Goes… The Less You Feel…
Too much sleep and now I can’t think (Clearly)Things it turned out were never all rightSomethings come from the left as wellDifficult to walk a straight line in the wrong direction(Obviously) Was it though and for how long?Guess it was always me and I kind of knewToo much sleep and…
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But It Isn’t…
The dust it gathers across all the thingsI said I was going to doWords gathering up into a paragraphSeparated by commas I don’t know how to useI could have learned this is trueBut then I wouldn’t have been me and neverMet you… they say things happen for a reasonSure why…
Chewing On Glass... 